Possibilities

Possibilities.... When I was young I wasn't scared of that word. That word meant choice. It meant that you could be anything you wanted to be, do anything you wanted to do. Because when you're a grown up, you were supposed to be able to do anything you ever dreamed of.

As I got older I realized that there were still a lot of possibilities, but, as life goes, some were off limits. I still was hopeful. I still dreamed. Somewhere along the way though, I think I stopped dreaming. I made myself be content with less. I made myself believe that what I had accomplished was enough, even though there was that niggling voice in the back of my head saying otherwise.

Well, that niggling voice gradually got louder and louder until I couldn't ignore it any longer. So, that led me to go to Career counseling. And now? Well, those possibilities seem endless again. Like I really can do whatever I want.

I had my 3rd Career counseling appointment on Thursday and I think I've figured out what I want to do. I've been leaning towards working with kids who are troubled - ones who have been abused or are in the system or whatever. I've found a course called "Child & Youth Care" that I can do mostly in the evenings that should take me about a year or so to complete.

Reading the course description made me so excited. It just felt right. And that is a feeling that I haven't had in a very, very long time.