Plans

Again, I haven't posted much lately. There just doesn't seem to be much going on. I'm still not feeling well. Just SO tired, like going to bed at 8:00 every night tired. Not sure why. I have a Dr. appointment tomorrow afternoon to get the results of my ultra.sound so we'll see how that goes!

I went to my first career counselling appointment last week and it was pretty cool. I was thinking that I'd just have to go for one appointment and I'd leave knowing what I should be doing with my life. LOL. It's apparently more complex than that! She sent me home with the Mye.rs Brig.gs personality test. Have any of you ever done that? I've done it before and I'm sure this result will be the same. I just find stuff like that so fascinating. I go see her again on Monday which is good.

It's funny, as the date looms closer to my 6 year mark of TTC, I'm finding that I'm more at peace with it. Or maybe I've managed to convince myself that I'm at peace and things will come crashing down the next time I get a pregnancy announcement from a friend. At any rate, I'm trying so hard to not be obsessed over this. To realize that there is life beyond this. I feel like its consumed me for so long and that I've neglected all the things that I used to find interesting.

J and I made a (sorta) firm plan as to our future. In March we're going to start looking for a bigger place. Then we'll give ourselves a couple of months to get settled and then start on our adoption process. I had spoke about me not being patient in one of my last posts. That's the thing that will stop this plan from working! I really want to call CFS and get an appointment made, especially as I've read on some message boards that public adoption through the gov't can take years and years. I don't know. What do you think? Should I call and at least get part of the process underway?

Our other dilemma is whether to just stick with CFS or also go with a private agency. Doing it privately will cost a lot. But we do have the money set aside for it - well, that money was supposed to be a down-payment on a house, but its there and can be used. So we're not quite sure what the right option for us is. I'm just so scared with either option that they'll deem us unworthy somehow. But I guess that's the chance we have to take.