Update

Thanks for all your kind thoughts from my last post. It made me feel a little better about my level of freaking out! lol

I talked to the Dr. office again and they've put my request for ultrasound in as a rush. And since I work in the same hospital where the ultrasound will be done, there is a good chance that I'll get in fairly soon. Which will do wonders for me and my overthinking things!

J and I sat down on the weekend and talked and finally came up with a firm plan of what we're going to do with our future. I have been in such turmoil because I didn't know what the right decision was. Do we move away to where my family is and delay our adoption plans by at least a couple of years if not more? Do we stay in our current apartment and delay plans a bit? Is Winnipeg the best place for us?

So, after much deliberation we decided that we are going to stay in Winnipeg. There really is a lot going for us here. We've made some great friends, I've got my business established and the cost of living is a lot cheaper. So that being said, we're going to try to be caretakers of an apartment building. There are quite a few ads that I've seen where you get a free place plus salary. That would mean I can work part time, or not at all. Then we can start the foster/adoption process a lot sooner. Like maybe in less than 6 months we could be on that road. It's not an ideal situation, but it's the means to an end, at least for a couple of years. By doing this we'll be able to afford a house in a few years instead of the rather distant future.

As much as this decision was hard to make (not being near my family is really difficult), I feel at peace with it. I think that it was the best decision we could have made. I know that in the grand scheme of things waiting another 2 or 3 years to start the adoption/foster process isn't that much, but I've waited so long already. My whole life really.