I haven't posted for a while. I've just had so much going on in my head that I didn't know where to start. I've been lurking and reading posts though.
Nothing really new and big happening lately. I'm still debating whether or not I like my new job. The job itself isn't too bad, it's just the lady that I work with. She talks SO MUCH. lol Like 7 out of the 8 hours that I'm there. And her whole life is one big drama. Everything is horrible and needs to be focused on her all the time. She'll tell everyone she comes across about some drama or another she's going through, when I'm sure they just don't really care. Like the other day she was upset about something we were told in a meeting, so then once we got into our next meeting proceeded to talk about it for the next 2 1/2 hours. And our meeting was only scheduled to be 1/2 hour. And it was through my lunch. Needless to say I was mad.
Hmmm, I didn't really meant to write that much about her, guess I'm madder at her than I thought! lol
We had our nieces come and stay with us this past weekend. It was wonderful. J and I spent all weekend with them and went to the park and had a bonfire and did crafts. I'll post some pics later. It broke my heart though hearing S, the 9 year old talk to me. Saturday night she couldn't sleep so she came and sat with me and talked for a bit. Her mom, the one that cheated on their dad and left them, has had a series of boyfriends. And apparently these boyfriends beat her up regularly. And she thinks it's normal to tell her 9 year old daughter about this. S is so scared for her mom that something is going to happen to her, that she often can't sleep.
It just kills me that this woman who doesn't want her kids, thinks that she can treat them like this. That she can use them as pawns, and tell them about her horrible life. I know she's not in her right mind, but still. And I know I sound like a broken record when it comes to this situation, but it just blows my mind. I held it together while I was talking with S but after she went back to bed I just lost it. Thank goodness for my wonderful hubby who just holds me and is so strong when it comes to things like this.
A few weeks ago one of the managers in my department came up to me and asked if she could talk to me. She had heard an offhand comment I had made about kids and put two and two together. So she asked me about my infertility. I was a bit hesitant to talk to her as she's quite a high up manager, and it feels weird to talk to someone like that about something so personal. But she then confided that she had struggled with infertility for 7 years and had finally found something that worked for her and that she wanted to sit down and talk to me about it. We didn't get a chance until Friday, and while it was kind of weird at first, it was so nice that this manager took time out of her busy schedule to tell me about it and tell me what worked for her. She went through treatment for immunilogical infertility. This is the link she gave me. Apparently she had been told by Dr's that she'd never get pregnant so to just give up on that dream. But after this treatment she got pregnant - twice. It's some really interesting info, something I think I'll think about, though the cost is pretty high.
Anyways, as usual, this was longer than I intended. Thanks for reading... As I was saying to J last night, I started this blog on a whim, but it's quickly changed into something very important to me. Thank you all for your support, it means SO much.
Your poor neices :( Can you talk to their dad about stuff they tell you? I would be frutrated and sad too - I'd want to call their mom and yell some sense into her. Of course I wouldn't but gah...
ReplyDeleteThat woman at your work sounds really annoying. I have a very talkative coworker - if I respond to her, our chats can get very long because she just keeps going and going. If I don't want to talk, I just pretend like I'm involved in something else while smiling and nodding at her and she eventually goes away! haha
That's so interesting about your manager "coming out" to you based on something you said. I don't know how I'd feel in that situation but it was nice of her to try and help.
Good to see a post from you again! :)
Your nieces are lucky to have you in their life! I will pray for them. They deserve so much more!
ReplyDeleteThanks for the link. I will have to check it out tonight!
Coworker sounds beyond annoying. But then I have a really low stupid people threshold.
ReplyDeleteHearing about your 9y.o. niece talk about her mom being beaten and telling her about it makes me want to throw up. As you say, mom is not in her right mind and I would guess that she may not realize how damaging this is to her daughter. Hopefully she will get to spend enough time with you to understand that mom isn't well.